Erika Kirk Obsessions
The possibility exists, to a larger degree than you want to admit, that Erika Kirk is exactly who she says she is
People are OBSESSED with Erika Kirk, right now. They have been since her husband was assassinated, ostensibly by Tyler Robinson. No one buys that, everyone is hyper-focused on everything they cannot know or prove, and everyone is absolutely sure they know exactly what should have happened and, therefore, what did happen.
At This Longer and Harder
I’ve been a conspiracy theorist, if you must call it that, since I was a small child. My first memories of my father include him reminding me nearly daily not to trust authorities, teachers, the media, or politicians — not just to not trust them, but to actively question 100% of what they do and why they do it, starting from the assumption that they are leading us astray and actively attempting to fleece us, or worse. The rest is history.
People ask me, especially after creating and producing my show, Rogue Soul, for the past nearly ten years now, “When did you wake up?”
I was never asleep.
They hate that answer, assume I’m trying to gain some kind of clout, and then dismiss almost all of what I say or do because what they want is for me to pretend I just woke up when they did, sometime in the past decade — but the truth is I’ve had about three decades head-start on almost all “conspiracy theorists” almost everywhere in the world on almost every topic. I don’t even care at all, am attached to this reality exactly 0% — it is just true.
When I then go against the mainstream line of a popular, contemporary conspiracy theory unfolding in real time, I get the constant accusation of “not understanding” anything from the shadow government to the Illuminati to the Satanic cabal to the Globalist takeover to the MK Ultra Project Mockingbird secret CIA covert psyop industrial complex blah blah blah, ad nauseum.
Ironically, I understood everything about all of those rabbitholes before most of these people even wondered whether people in power would ever lie to them intentionally, abuse them, or cause them harm.
So, no — my differing take on Erika Kirk and every other potential psyop or false flag that ever occurs is not because I do not know as much as the absolute glut of people promoting the same take - it is because I both know more and am more healed in myself. It is because I’ve gone down every rabbithole and come out the other side of its intrigue and mystery to clear the smoke and mirrors and look objectively, using actual logic instead of
emotional reactivity
fog of war delusion
jumping to conclusions based on previous patterns
groupthink
wanting to fit in or get clicks and views
confirmation bias
seeing only my own narrow experience in a world full of staggering diversity
And people, in general, don’t even understand what I just said, so they very rarely end up in a similar position, except by pure accident.
Rich Christians
First of all, if you’ve never spent time with extremely wealthy, deeply faith-oriented Christians, you may not understand what they’re like.
I noticed many years ago and have video evidence of me asking nearly every one of my many hundreds of guests on the show, “What brought you to question things or wake up?” and almost none of them said anything other than, “I had an extremely difficult childhood.”
Almost all conspiracy theorists are deeply troubled people with histories of chronic abuse or trauma of one or multiple kinds. Often, when we are broken, we wake up quicker because our survival instincts demand we constantly pay attention, find patterns, predict danger, and avoid it — if we want to make it in this world. So we do. And then we see the big picture of fraud, deceit, manipulation, control, and terror.
Very few conspiracy theorists had any kind of normal or stable childhoods. Even the ones who think they did usually didn’t, upon deeper investigation. On the contrary, every person I know in life who is exceptionally free from childhood trauma and instability is not in any way interested in conspiracies. They may humor me and may care about an issue or movement here or there, especially if it relates directly to their family and life, but they do not, in general, search out these patterns and threats, focusing on exposing them.
Further, every wealthy Christian family I knew growing up has a dearth of conspiracy theorists. Not only that, they have an almost intrinsic trust that things in general are ok, will work out, and that truth, justice, and freedom shall prevail — because that is God’s will. To be clear, these people are not stupid or uncaring, they have a faith that transcends anything evil can accomplish on Earth. They are aware of much and also let go of most of it because it cannot touch their connection to God and their incredibly glorious salvation and afterlife.
It’s a beautiful thing.
When a wealthy Christian family essentially took me in and tried to give me some of what I was lacking so very deeply in life, including food, stability, and attention, they showed me a whole different world. They had standards of how they dressed and looked in public. They took care of their bodies and minds. They intentionally looked at their actions to see if they did right or wrong and how they could improve. They cared about their belongings and property and whether or not it reflected the order and ideals of their hearts. They, more than anything, cared about making a difference in the world.
A wealthy Christian like Erika Kirk is likely so different from you that you cannot even comprehend her world. You likely cannot comprehend her worldview. You likely cannot comprehend what she does daily, why she does it, and what her heart holds as the most important aspects of life. You cannot comprehend it because, unless you’re like me and were brought deep into the bosom of a wealthy Christian family, you likely have never experienced anything like it. And to be crystal clear: watching wealthy Christians from a distance, knowing them in passing, and judging them all the while does not give you that insight.
Someone like Erika Kirk is likely to value her appearance deeply, be more committed than we can imagine to serving what she perceives as her community, and puts faith and the works that serve God above literally EVERYTHING ELSE IN EXISTENCE. Including the death of a loved one.
Death of a Loved One
It took me until about five years ago to realize that almost no one I knew had lost almost anyone close to them. Because I have lost so, so very many people deeply close to me, I thought it was normal. You see how humans do that? We project onto the world what we experience. I also thought everyone lived in a tiny shack with six people and three dogs and a cat without much food and constantly terrified — until the rich Christians showed me a different world that blew my mind.
We tend to expect what we have known — and have a hard time knowing what we don’t know.
I lost my father at 11. I lost my grandfather and grandmother in the preceding year. I lost another grandmother who had lived with me since I was 6 and helped raise me when I was 19. I have lost multiple friends — some to overdose, some to murder, some to suicide — beginning in high school and not slowing down. Maybe you’ve lost people too, but apparently it isn’t all that normal to lose people very close to us until much later in life.
When you lose a loved one, you are often so stunned and so deeply dissociated from the terrible grief and overwhelming prospect of living life without the person that you are in a bit of denial. You go into “automatic life mode” where you focus on one thing at a time because, let’s face it, you still have to shower, eat, clean, go to school, go to work.
Some people bring all their emotions up and out and constantly cry and moan and mope and have it written all over them. Sometimes they do this for days, weeks, months, or even years.
Some people become stoic, angry, or distant and you cannot really see their grief except in how they never show it.
Some people buckle down and dig into the work of life because it helps to do, move, go, and act.
Some people have such extreme faith in God and the eternal Soul that they are barely even sad, except at the fact they will physically miss the person. Most people cannot even imagine this feeling.
Some people are almost relieved or glad, like I was when my Grandmother who practically raised me passed. It was more that I knew how much and how long she had suffered — and I saw her Soul blossoming into something bigger than life as she lay on her death bed. I saw the happiness she had at a life well-lived. I understood the eternal Soul, already. It was only sad to see my mother’s heartbreak; otherwise, I never cried a tear. I celebrated her success and her Soul’s progress.
When Erika Kirk visibly steels herself in the immediate aftermath of Charlie Kirk’s death, you can either see someone play-acting or you can see someone who deeply believes, is literally asking God for the strength and courage to move forward, receives that gift, and then moves forward.
When she then seems to continue to act and move over the next few months, making sure her husband’s legacy continues both in his memory and also for the glory of her God, you can either see someone carrying out a mission from the shadow government or you can see someone whose priorities and ability to rise to them comes from a long life of faith and stability, as well as high trust, the likes of which most who don’t have it cannot imagine.
The fact that so many people can laugh and feel happy or motivated in the face of deep struggle and loss seems to roll right past the Erika-Kirk-obsessed.
Minor, Apparent Lies & Nonsense
Just like the Tyler Robinson conspiracy theories, almost every supposed ‘gotcha’ has an actual reasonable potential explanation, when it comes to Erika Kirk. Again, in no way do I even care EXCEPT that I am a teacher and I aim to both see my own responses and thinking processes more clearly and I aim to help others do the same. Think whatever you want about any of it, but if you find yourself simply reacting emotionally and dismissing me, you may be the retard.
People are concerned that her mother has ties to the government because a company she started rather late in life had one of many contracts with the government. I’ve known families who ran cleaning businesses who had contracts with the government. It means almost nothing. If you could instead point to that contract and tell me why it specifically matters, we’d have a different possible story going on here and something interesting may come of it, but so far it is seemingly enough for the deeply obsessed that a minor connection exists at all.
Her father was also in the military. So was mine and nearly every other person’s of my age because EVERYONE WAS. It wasn’t like today, where only some people go into the military — many people went by choice and then we also had THE DRAFT. It is NORMAL to have a military family member.
Erika Kirk won a beauty pageant and Trump administered that — and many, many other beauty pageants — and that somehow matters. Is it weird? Not even a little bit. Again, if you could tell me how or why that tiny detail would be interesting, maybe we’d have something, but instead it’s just dropped, as-is, as though it matters deeply. If it did, why wouldn’t we also be looking at literally every other beauty pageant participant in every single Trump beauty pageant in history? We aren’t because, deep inside, everyone knows it isn’t even that compelling. If you could show me a conspiracy theory that involves a boatload of beauty pageant participants becoming somehow involved in high-level assassinations of political people, I’d care. Since you cannot, I don’t.
Then there is the detail that Erika Kirk says she didn’t date before Charlie and a picture emerging of a dude she is in a photo with holding a painting. Apparently, everyone who cares about this detail has literally never ever done anything fun with someone of the opposite sex unless it led to sex. I’m confused about how many degenerates there are out there, at this point. I’ve had an exorbitant amount of encounters and activities with male friends without dating or becoming sexual with them. I’m pretty sure it isn’t just a ‘me thing’. This detail is empty.
This same guy apparently has a tattoo of the word “pizza” on his lip - this is literally the most interesting detail of this entire story and also has the least attention! Go figure. “Pizza” is obviously code for pedophilia related garbage and if you know you know, if you don’t you may think it’s just a normal tattoo for a weird guy to have, and maybe it is. But this is the only compellingly interesting aspect of this whole obsession.
Finally, people are upset that Erika Kirk said she has never been a drinker and that she seems to be holding an alcoholic beverage in a three second clip someone dug up. There’s literally no way to know what’s in the glass and the entire thing is the stupidest part of this whole, sordid obsession. Dear god.
Only Anger, No Facts
Other than these accusations I’ve brought up here, no one can point to any actual conclusion or reason why any of these things matter and no one can explain to me why my take isn’t just as good, maybe better, than theirs.
Is Erika Kirk a demonic psychopath who helped to assassinate her husband? Maybe. I don’t personally care one way or the other, but logically I cannot find a single bit of any details or facts that even remotely hint that this is the case.
People want the coroner’s report, they want the death certificate, they want to know where Charlie is interred, they want to know why the guys took the cameras down and why the site was bulldozed and razed moments after the shooting, they want to know why Tyler Robinson texted such strange things and why Charlie’s neck didn’t evaporate and why McDonald’s always seems to be involved in post-assassination shenanigans for the shooters. Some of these, like why his neck didn’t explode, have actual, potential answers that do make sense — but no one wants to hear those, because they’re not as sexy and fun. They’re not as group-thinky. They don’t allow for the club to get together and be ‘in the know’ together and therefore better than the sheep and plebs.
Elitism aside, questions are good, and conclusions based on emotional reactivity, a lack of an ability to understand life out of your narrow experience of it, and paltry nothings will never serve you — not if you want to truly be awake and claim that title. So wake up.
